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Darkness Matters by Jay McLean

“For those who drown in darkness. Fight.” 


The dedication alone tells you that this book is special. That this book will be an emotional read and that it will affect you in so many ways.

I’ve been obvious in my declaration of love for Jay McLean and her words. How she seemed to penetrate your barriers no matter how tough and tall you make them. But when I read Darkness Matters, I realized that it was different from her More Than series or any other books that she’s written. It hit me in a different manner and I think it’s meant to be that way. It made my heart cry in a way that I’ve never felt before.

Darkness Matters is the story of Noah and Andromeda. It’s Noah’s story. It’s Andromeda/Andie’s story. It tells you about their present: the undeniable attraction that they have for each other. Their cute, awkward and funny encounters and interactions that will make your heart flutter and melt. But it also tells you the story of their past, the choices, and mistakes that they made and the life experiences they went through that shaped them, in more ways than one.

Jay McLean continues to surprise me with her storytelling and the way she peels her characters layer by layer until you find yourself in more ways than one, connected to her characters and their experiences. Darkness Matters was not an easy book to read, I found myself tearing up multiple times with just a few lines of a character which goes like this:

“I’m a girl with an infinite amount of regrets. A girl who used to believe in chance and in fate but doesn’t anymore. I’m a girl who sees the world in black and white and different shades of grays, but barely even in color”

A couple of times I had to breathe deeply while reading because there was this thing in my chest, this heavy emotion I couldn’t quite define. This darkness I know that’s also inside of me. Something that stirs every now and then. But reading this book also made me notice that I also have a ray of light, something good that’s present along with that darkness. And that every day I chose to fight.

“Everything we feel, the good, the bad and the dark… it matters.”



Read: July 1, 2017

The BookNut Verdict: 5 out of 5



Hello there! Thanks for stumbling through my little abode here. I’m self-confessed late bloomer voracious reader. Been doing a lot of catching up lately since I let me to-read pile grow a mile (a hundred miles) long. I’m in love with the written word although I have no formal training in writing. I just try to jot down random ramblings and thoughts in my mind before they escape me. My tastes in books aren’t discriminating, I can read almost anything with just a minor exception in the horror genre. Since I scare easily, I tend to back away from that. I read mostly fiction, from young adult, new adult (the older version of YA), sci-fi, thriller, mystery, action-adventure to of course romance (ahem smutty romance). I’m here to share my reviews for the books that I read. Share my thoughts about their authors and characters. I’m not here to blog about the technical aspect of it or give you spoilers (I hope not!) but more like give you insights about these various stories with the hopes that maybe I’ll be encouraging you to read them too. I hope you stayed long enough to get through this. If you did, then you’re the real MVP! Xoxo, The BookNut :)